Friday, March 25, 2011

Shaking Off The Dust

It's been a year since I last wrote. A year. Wow---that's hard to believe. I don't know what happened really. Did the short bursts of Facebook become the new tempo? I don't even read any blogs anymore; rarely even check to see if someone ELSE has anything new to say. Seems like I'm not the only one who fell off the blog wagon. And I may not really be getting back on. We'll have to see.

But since it's been a year, I figure it's safe to assume that no one will even see or notice this little spell of thinking out loud. So many things on my mind but mostly, lately, has been this: what am I going to be when I grow up?

I've been very restless, wanting to DO something. I'm an incredible time-waster and I can just see me slowly wasting the next 20 years because I'm not doing anything in particular. Laundry and cleaning and driving kids to sports requires only so much mental capacity...the rest of what I might have is BORED TO DEATH. I need to DO something.

I could be magnanimous and volunteer and do for the good of others. That would likely be the highest road to take. I don't feel myself drawn that direction, sad as that may be. I want a job, I want to be challenged, I want to think/figure out/work on something. I don't know what tho!!! I'm totally untrained to do ANYTHING. Pitiful really.

SO. I've come back again to that elephant that was in the room for soooo long: court reporting. I thought I'd settled that I'm done with it. But I don't think so. I don't think it's done with me. It's overwhelming, the thought of trying to do that again, get back on that horse. Overwhelming. And yet somehow a little exciting. And definitely familiar.

So that's where I'm at. Do I? or don't I? Where do I even start to figure that first part out???

8 comments:

  1. yeah absolutely do it!!! none of us is getting any younger (especially not you guys (just kidding, a little joke there)) ps. this is charlotte

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  2. Hi It sounds like you are pulled to court reporting......maybe you should look into it again. Or take up knitting! Cynde and Terri have knit for a long time and have gotten me enthused. It is fun! Not a lot of brain power required so you might want to stick with court reporting! :)

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  3. haha, Charlotte! You make a good point.

    And Nan, that's great---knitting! I actually used to knit a long time ago...I loved it! I probably don't even remember how to do it now, but maybe it's like riding a bike. A little different, yes, than court reporting. :) Maybe I can manage to do both. We'll see!

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  4. Hi fellow wordfeud, facebook, sporadic blogger
    GO FOR IT!

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  5. Hi! So what did you decide??????

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  6. I haven't decided anything yet, Nan! I think about it constantly: what can I do? What kind of shop can I open? where can I work? What kind of work do I want to do? etc etc. It's very frustrating to have no marketable skills or talents, I tell ya!!! Not that I can't DO anything but there's nothing remarkable that stands out.

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  7. What are you to do? - you ask
    Could not be any easier.... buy the Iris Dement "sing the delta" cd. Turn it on, close your eys and feel it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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  8. I think I know who might give such good good advice. :) J.R.

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